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Coping with Living in a Parallel Universe
Sisyphus had the impossible task of pushing the boulder up a hill for eternity. I similarly tried to be heard and understood.
Mar 614 min read
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Can Anyone Hear Me?
"... it never really leaves my mind. I have not been waiting for inspiration, I have been searching for understanding."
Jan 239 min read
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Overthinker
"I am not sure to what extent I actually have control over the way my brain fixates and dissects things. Nature versus nurture."
Dec 30, 20247 min read
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Reasonable Expectations for Invisible Disabilities
What are reasonable expectations for invisible disabilities? Specifically, I am asking to consider what are reasonable expectations of other
Dec 7, 202412 min read
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A Conversation with AI
It is not a coincidence that philosophers are synonymous with depression
Nov 28, 20247 min read
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Predeterminism and Deontology
I'm finding my mind drifting towards predeterminism lately. Which is odd as it is not something I have generally given credence to. I'm...
Nov 19, 20245 min read
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Reactions and Expectations
Would it make any difference if I did understand? I don't think I'll ever understand, so I also won't get to know if it mattered or not.
Sep 5, 20243 min read
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Things Will Get Better
My children likely won't really hear me, just as I could not hear it, but I will keep saying it. "Things will get better."
Aug 26, 20241 min read
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Being an "Other"
"People are accepting of those with mental illness, up until symptoms are expressed."
Aug 6, 20244 min read
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Depression and Existential Crisis
"When I become depressed, it manifests as existential crisis. I am not suffering from lethargy because I am experiencing mental self...
May 15, 20244 min read
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Cause, Effect, and OCD
In "An Enquiry Concerning Human Understanding," David Hume makes the case that nothing is really ever known, per say. The familiarity...
Apr 13, 20243 min read
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Disordered - Cognitive Dissonance
Cognitive Dissonance is no stranger to OCD. Opposing and conflicting views arguing inside my own mind for validation is the unending...
Apr 13, 20244 min read
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OCD - Fear
"Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is marked by heightened anxiety and misplaced anxiety. That part of the mind is over reactive. The result...
Feb 27, 20246 min read
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Catharsis
Catharsis: "the process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions." Many of the ideas that I submit...
Feb 13, 20244 min read
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Why Do I Keep Digging?
Digging in your past for lost secrets. Do you expect to find treasures? Is that what you think you would have buried and hidden? Is it...
Feb 7, 20243 min read
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Disordered AI Art and Introspection
I was curious what the Deep Dream AI would produce for art if I entered just a few disorders as the only text prompt for creating images....
Jan 25, 20243 min read
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When I Finally Lose the War: A Battle with Mental Illness
"When I finally lose my mind entirely, will all who love me now abandon me? Will others tell them that the person who remains is not the...
Jan 5, 20243 min read
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AI, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and I
OCD as described by ChatGPT, then as visualized by Deep Dream, then discussed by myself as someone who experiences it.
Dec 21, 20235 min read
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